I LOVE my friend Scott Zaborski. I really love him in ways that I never have and don't love any of my other friends. We kind of.. understand each other. I remember Scott was the first friend at CEU that I really connected with and talked about really personal stuff with. So today I got on facebook and Scott wrote me a little comment then asked me how I was doing. I told him I was alright and he said he was feeling depressed, when I asked why, she said he didn't really have friends in St. George, which is ironic because I've been feeling the same way here in Florida. Then Scott said lets talk about all the things we hate, then quickly changed his mind and said No not do that. So I said why don't we talk about all the things we are grateful for, Why I said that? I know know. But honestly it made me fell better to think of all the things I am grateful for. Thinking positively really brought me out of the gutter that I was in, of my loss of friends feeling. So I think if you ever are feeling down, which happens to me often, focus on the positive in your life. Make a list of 10 things you are grateful for. They don't have to be, the food on my table or that I don't have cancer (both very worthwhile things to be thankful for) but little things, like the grass, or toilet paper. Who know? There are SO many things to be thankful for!
This will be the Lamest Blog in the world, but I wanted to try and start blogging everyday, but I'm super tired and don't really have a profound blog today ;-) But It is more of a grateful blog. I have so much to be grateful for in my life, my family, my friends, my country, food, clothes, so many things. I just live in a very fortunate time, and I think every now and again it is good to just sit back and say out loud, "I am grateful." So there that is my blog for today, "I am grateful!"
So, I try to be profound and insightful, but really it never happens. When I get on my blog I tend to get on an ramble about things that don't really matter to anyone else, but blogging is very therapeutic to me. So today I would like to ramble on about my Mid-midlife crisis. Last night I was having a very hard night, at the time it seemed like for no reason. I was up till 6:30 in the morning, I couldn't relax, I opened the window and turned on the fan but was still blazing hot. (Hold on, I'm going to get a coke.) Alrighty, where was I, oh yes, well this morning as I was laying in my bed around 4ish I realized why I was so "sick" we'll say. After seeing an amazing show (Spring Awakening) and all the wonderful actors, I was feeling very inadequate, thinking there is no way I'll be able to be as good as them. So, I got an impression "Text Nora." Why Nora? I have no idea, but I now realize that texting her was the best thing I could have done at that moment. Of course she was awake and ready to talk to me and help me with my problems and long story short, she did. I love her so much and value our friendship to a whole new level. Then later this afternoon I got a call from Todd Olsen one of my directors at school and a close personal friend. After a long (uplifting) talk from him, my spirits were boosted once again! And I came to the conclusion that really, I am only 18, my life is not complete... or my puzzle if you will (Hence the picture.) I'm not meant to be on Broadway just yet, or I would be. I've just got to be patient and work hard to get my puzzle finished and correctly, because a puzzle only fits one way, I believe that I will end up where I need to be. I will work as hard as I can to get to be where I want, and right now, that is all I can do.
So today I saw Spring Awakening, is was Awesome! It is about these German kids living in the 1890's deal with problems of Sex. They are the same problems we are dealing with today, so though out the show the characters will grab a microphone and that is representing them being in the 1900's. I wont give anything away but if you want to know more you should purchase the Original Cast Album with Lea Michele. But a word of caution this show deals with explicit content, adult themes and language. Not really for Children but a great story for adults. Technically this show was PHENOMENAL, I don't think I have ever seen a lighting design more breath taking and "awe" inspiring as this one was. It is now in my list of "top 5" musicals because one is impossible to have. Thanks again for reading my blog, I now know that I have 12 followers so Thank you! LOVES TO ALL!!
So whilst were were driving to New Orleans to day I decided I wanted to make a list of all the states that I have been to, so then I thought why don't I be a little more creative and make a cute little map.. so I did just that...
Ta Da! Isn't it Beautiful!? I felt like I had been to a million until I made this then I realized that really, I haven't been to too many. (Maybe I should have put Mississippi and Alabama in a different color because I haven't been to them yet, but Never fear I will be driving through there tomorrow.) I guess you could say I've been in more, because I have flown over some to go to New York and Florida but we wont count those. I want to keep an up dated version of this so then when I go to other states I'll know where I've been! Thanks for the 4 of you who follow my blog, you're amazing and Sorry I don't blog as often as I'd like but maybe one day It'll happen. Also I plan to do a BIG blog about Clark and My trip across the county as soon as it is complete... LOVES TO ALL!